wow i've disappeared for so long not on exile lah lol. eh i want to tell you about my experience but i think it's not 'safe' to talk about it here. friends, call me! i would love to share where i've been these days. totally enlightening and heart-warming. awesome phenomenal. i'll tell zp tmr, then i'll tell yx on tues, then i'll tell whoever i'm meeting up with! yay! love!

MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY *The Apprentice opening song rings*
aww i have been scrimping and saving and not going out last week. it's quite impossible to thoroughly enjoy oneself in sg without money. hmm. it's not like we have free meals, free rides, free entertainment... even the thought of misusing electricity by switching on the com and tv give me the chills of how much energy (and money) is being consumed. i feel like the piggy bank in the household. i'm the creditor ya know. uh, waiting for the loaned money to come back to me. look for a job you say, but i need clothes. yes please. i've cleared my old clothes. yay going shopping soon. but... but... need money to shop also ma... urggh disgusting. i wonder what happened to my money. i've been a really good girl. not that i'm praising myself, but really really good girl who doesn't ask for much. i'm happy with what i have now. i don't splurge on unnecessary stuff. i don't gamble though i'm legal. i don't have a money-sucking addiction. i don't doll myself up with expensive items. i don't get cheated. i just don't do stupid things like what you have been doing all these years. all i ask is for your self-control and prudence in managing our finance. i know it's not easy to support a household on your own. but still, you are incorrigible lah. once bitten, twice shy. yet how many freaking times do you want to get bitten. crazy. there's no easy way out in life. don't be so naive. anyhoots, i've done my part in saving up. i'm pleased with myself for behaving well. you'd better behave too. hopefully all the sacrifice is worthwhile. i'm positive. this is first person view point. it may be a biased account 'cos i've never discussed monetary woes with you before. i didn't want to have a slice of your worries. i feel that it's your self-fulfilling prophecy. you are practically asking for it. all of it. before you point your finger at others, blame it upon yourself first please. i'm disappointed. i'm scared. but i still love you.