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Booya! i'm preparing myself for next week's papers. oh man... FIVE CONSECUTIVE DAYS. i hope i have the stamina to last that long 'cos this week's 3 straight days already so draining lah. haha 'A' level is about who can make the least mistakes. it is the real competition when everyone says it's easy. hello, i'm trying to study IDENTITY p5 lit now but i can't get into the mood. you know, that kind of lit writing atmosphere. okay maybe by talking about myself - my identity, then i will be able to engage with what i'm studying. just ytd, i saw s and j at the bustop. s took a pic of me with her phone and repeatedly told j that i'm "so cute". sigh, why does everyone make the same comment about my appearance. i've heard it n times already. is it i'm ugly but adorable? (haha!) oh well. i'll take it as a compliment. and then another thing which i've heard n times also, is that i'm not a singaporean. they linked me to hongkongers, koreans, japanese, taiwanese, china chinese... hmm. are looks really that deceiving? do people have a preconceived notion about something before they judge others? or are they just activating their schema and try to relate what they see to what they have an impression about? (haha! friends, don't mind me. okay! i feel more lit now!)

I'm fully charged now. I (unintentionally) spent one entire day recharging. It seems that when I close my eyes, I'm deeply drawn in my sleep. My unusually heavy eyelids happily drooped down to shut me out from this world, taking me to the other universe in my dream. Sounds absurd when I say I felt like I was in another dimension. Although I cannot remember exactly what I was dreaming of, but I'm sure that it was nothing like where I know. I was totally knocked out as the exhaustion crept in. I want to rip apart that thin veil between dreams and reality. It is so irritating when you cannot materialise something. You open your eyes and poof! it's gone.

last chance.

Oh! Oh! One final thing I want to say... I have to say THANK YOU to my lovely friends! Thank you siewwei, yixin, zai, tricia, syah, tehreem for fighting alongside me. This journey would have been much tougher for me without your support and good company. I won't miss you guys 'cos we'll keep in touch right? I dedicate a youtube video for you okay! Hahaa. I know syah likes this cartoon too.

gasp.

Joke lah hahaha. I'm stressed now.
I cannot let you down.
And most importantly, I cannot let myself down!
nothing will come out of nothing.

I didn't take much pic during farewell assembly. Oh, to add on to the previous post, I think I want to reveal who are the people I was referring to 'cos they are worth mentioning! I'm so glad to know them but! not well enough.
Hello jiaxin! yuhsuan! qihui! xiaomei! szehim! cherry! joanna! huiqi! adeline! joanne! pamela! and many more... You are bound to see me waving to some of them in school. Haha. What to do, I'm not proactive in making friends. I will miss saying 'hello' to them. It's like they will give you a reason to smile for ten seconds even if you are not in a good mood. So yeah man. They are very nice people haha.